Monday, March 30, 2009

Losing hope

I tested this morning. It was negative. And now, a little bit ago, I had a weird gush of cm, and it was very slightly blood tinged. It was very barely there, but enough that I'm not hopeful anymore. For me, spotting always means period. I'm going to call the surgeon a little later and see if they want to just add me to the schedule, and if somehow this changes, then I'll just cancel last minute.
I do not want to do the surgery right now. I feel fine since a few days after the attack, and I can eat whatever. I'm not looking forward to the wonderful stuff that is going to come with no gall bladder.
I just don't understand things this time. If it's going to come, I wish it would just start already because at this point, it's rude to keep taking longer. It's day 31. Come on already.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry it's not looking so good. I love how people like to say that sometimes when your pregnant it's exactly like PMS... well, sometimes that PMS stuff is a little too realistic.

    Is is possible that you are a little off on your ovulation day?

    Don't put off getting that GB out. You've already had loads of trouble and pregnancy will probably only aggravate it more and that would be really bad. I'd say my recovery is pretty much complete and I can eat about anything I want again... I only had about 4 days of digestive troubles and I experimented with cheese pizza and buttered popcorn the other day and it went fine. Life is much better lately sans gallbladder.

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