I'll be taking a break apparently. I'm not happy about that, because it feels like we're off to a really good start with the study, and now it will be like May until we start trying again. I'm very frustrated by this. The spotting is a little more now, so I know this cycle is over. I haven't heard back yet from the nurse, but I did hear back from the surgeon and he convinced me to just get it over with. Nothing is set in stone yet, but he thinks he will be able to get me set up for next Tuesday. Possibly sooner but he's not sure how he could rearrange things to make that happen. Sooner would be better but who knows. IF and that's a big IF there, we could get it done Thursday or Friday, I'd not have to skip a cycle. He says it would be perfectly fine to continue as planned so he's going to see what he can do. Everything crossed right now that it's somehow possible.
I go for my pre-op appt on the 1st. They are squeezing me in so I'll probably wait a while she said, but whatever gets me in. It all sucks though. I'm terrified of the freaking surgery idea, I'm pissed that I have to wait, and I'm a total emotional mess today. I hate the mind games that cycles play! I just want for it to be evening and I'm sure things will be better once I talk to my husband and he can calm the craziness going on in my mind.
So at this point, I'm waiting for real flow to start. I'm waiting on the nurse to get back to me on what they are going to do. I'm waiting to find out if I for sure have a babysitter for whenever the surgery is scheduled. And, I have a gigantic list of things that must be done before surgery would happen.
Oh, and the surgeon told me that normally the people who have a lot of issues after surgery, are the ones who've had a lot of issues beforehand too. So, the fact that I've been doing pretty good, he thinks that means I'll do just fine after. I really hope so....
I guess I better get this list of stuff started. Otherwise it will be a wonderful disaster next week after this is done.
Hugs Michelle, just take it a little at a time. Matt had his gall bladder out and he was okay within a few days. And he felt much much better.
ReplyDeleteOne step at a time....the meds will work for you. Hang in there....HUGS!
Sorry about the cycle. I'll keep my fingers crossed that he can get you in sooner. Keep on the positive side... you responded to the meds, you might have to wait an extra month, but at least your moving forward.
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