The positive, I am starting meds today. No more waiting. That's about all I have positive right now because I'm just mean and miserable lately. And I don't care who reads it at this point.
Today is a really difficult day. And according to certain people, I'm supposed to be thrilled apparently. My brother and his girlfriend are at the hospital right now for induction of their first kid. Now, most people I guess would be happy, especially with it being the first niece/nephew and all, but I'm not. I don't agree with their situation and think it's really unfair that pretty much anyone except me can just get pregnant when they decide they want it. I know...that sounds really pathetic and rude right now. Like I said, not caring today.
My mom has been updating me as she hears stuff, and is already on her way to the hospital because they decided to break her water. So at this point, it's really happening and I have to accept it. I'm expected to visit later, and take my grandmother along with me. I honestly don't know how I can do it without the hormonal crap.
And..last week a friend of mine had my husband tell me that she is pregnant with #2. Her baby is 6 months old, and when the new one is born, there will be 14 months between them. They were not trying and at first were not very thrilled with the idea. What gets me the most with that is she would ask me a lot of questions about PCOS because she was diagnosed with it before having her baby, and apparently was told things are worse since having the baby. She said the doctor told her the way things were looking, she probably would not be able to get pregnant on her own again. So she believed that, and guess what. She's due in November. Since the baby was born I've been asked all sorts of questions about IF treatments, because they planned on starting at the end of the year, questions about PCOS, questions about why she would be late, etc. She's gotten pregnant twice on her own before this so why would they trust the doctor on "it probably will never happen on it's own". Seriously. But anyway, she told my husband because she wasn't sure how to tell me. He had to break the news to me when I was having a really good day. Apparently everyone is scared to talk to me about things like this. That makes me feel even more wonderful.
But anyway, it's a wonderful day.
Do you ever think that maybe PCOS is over diagnosed? Every once in a while I read about someone that has PCOS and I just don't believe them... not that they are lying, but their drs have misdiagnosed it. You know, the size 4's that ovulate every month but because there LH to FSH ratio is high it must be PCOS. It just seems like I have to be suffering from something different from them, cause my life seems to suck a lot more than theirs does. Ok, I'm way too cynical this morning. Grass is always greener or some BS like that.
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Yes, I agree!! That might be my next post because I was thinking that exact thing earlier... It amazes me though when some people say they have it, and make it sound really bad, but yet never have any of the issues I've had. Maybe I'm just lucky. Or something.
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