Thursday

So far, it's a pretty decent day. Sun is shining, getting things accomplished, kid and animals are happy. It's day 2 of meds for me, and I'm feeling more optimistic today. I went to bed last night and had a nice talk with D about things, and was able to fall asleep after and slept pretty good. He is working a weird shift the next 2 days and wasn't going in super early, so I also got a chance to see him this morning for a few minutes. That was nice. Only downfall is it will be a long evening till he's home. And K might not get to see him tonight. I have to figure out something fun for us to do this evening.

I'm doing better about the babies everywhere thing that's been bothering me. I did my good deed of the year and am copying the files my mom asked me to do for her from the birth yesterday. She also asked for help to make the video into a dvd for them, but that's way past my boundaries and I will not be doing that. I don't want to see it. I can't believe they are even ok with that idea. I told them it will be saved to a disk as it was given to me, and they can do the rest.

With my weird mood lately, I've been bad and eating too much junk food again. I was so excited about my weight loss after surgery, and now it's creeping back. I have to stop and get a handle on things really fast. It doesn't help that I'm crazy hungry since starting these meds. Is that normal? I don't remember it much before.... Really though, I need to get rid of the junk food and get back to healthier eating. We have a wedding to go to in August and my plan for that is to either be pregnant, or lose another 10lbs so I feel good about myself getting dressed up at that point. I'm hoping for pregnant but you know how that goes.....

But here's hoping to a better day and finally being normal again. And must keep reminding myself, it IS going to work this time.