Random stuff...

I have a ton of stuff on my mind tonight. A nice long random post to clear my mind since I've been living in lonely mommy land.

There is 10 days of school left. Mostly activity filled. He's kinda bummed that school is almost over, and I'm trying to get a meeting in effect before it's over to get some activities to keep him learning this summer. The preschool stuff was easy. The 1st grade and up, is harder to find stuff that fits his exact learning style. I also want to know what the game plan is for next year. He's asking to follow the 1st grade reading group to 2nd grade. Not sure how that will work.

We're debating getting another dog when we move. I don't remember if I wrote about it, but 2 months ago, I found an amish breeder that had Keeshonds. Amazingly awesome price, and pure breed. They had a litter avaiable the day I had asked if they still bred them. We spent an hour and half and I walked away. Good thing too because when I called to ask, I was told absolutely no other pets here, and that the pet policy became very strict. So, there is a new litter due this summer and they have my number. If they call me, it's going to be very hard to say no. In a way, it feels like wrong timing, but then again, maybe it will make Zoey a little more active. She likes the company of the neighbor dog, and was actually fine when we met the pups. She didn't seem to care about them, but she was not mean or agressive in any way. So we will see. I feel like we should get one before she gets any older, or anything happens to her. That sounds really wrong, and I don't mean it in a replace the dog type of way. She is more than any dog could ever be, and I won't even begin to think about what that will be like....

Babysitting is still keeping me busy. The kids are pretty fun, but we've hit a really interesting stage with the girl. She's going to be 3 in September. I never had any real drama with Kristopher till he was 4. So this attitude and bad stuff is all new. Either the true meaning of terrible 2's, or maybe it's just a girl thing. I don't like it but we're working thru it. She can be so mean and bossy, then so super sweet all in the same minute. The baby isn't really a baby anymore I guess. He's 18 months and copying all his big sister's drama. In the past 2 days, they've both ended up giving me near heart attacks with blood and tears. One bit thru the lip, the other got a bloody nose face planting off the couch. Again, I don't remember this with K....

Diet is going ok. I'm down 4lbs total so far. This is week 3. So i guess that's a really good thing because they said the best loss is slow. I just wish it was more. I also don't be as careful as I should. If i replaced a ton of the calories with more veggies, that would probably help.

I'm sort of excited and hopeful about the next round though. I'm hooked on the baby thoughts again, and really hope that this can work out. I feel like if it doesn't, I'm giving up and will see what we can do to try to adopt without it killing us financially. I'd be ok with adoption, and probably not pick tiny baby stage because there are so many older kids in need. I'd like to keep the age around Kristopher, or younger, but there is still that part of me that feels I need to experience it all again. I was stupid then, and didn't realize that it may not happen again. So I have no pictures, and other than the constant throwing up, there's not too many memories about pregnancy. I think it would be nice to be able to enjoy it. Work made things very difficult and by the time I quit, it was almost the end. It went too fast to remember much.

I need to go clean and try to get to bed earlier tonight. Mornings suck lately. At least my mind is semi clear. Maybe that will help me sleep....