And I'm in & other updates

I've passed all my tests and I'm officially in this study thing again. In the group that is just diet & exercise because I lucked out and my bmi was low enough that I can't get the diet pill. I'm fine with that. I know if I put the time and effort into things, I can lose the weight with dieting and exercising for real. And, I've already lost 2lbs since the last visit. That's even with the Easter candy drama.

Mentally things have not been good here. I feel very alone and feel like I have no one to talk to. So while I am avoiding the rest of the world right now, the blog makes me feel like I am not totally alone. But still, it helps to have a real person to talk to when things aren't going your way. I'm sick of the computer being the only means of adult interaction (minus my husband and the kids' parents when I babysit)


So for now, I'm going to do my own thing. I'm trying to keep busy, and stay off the computer. This is the first I've had it on since the weekend, other than a quick check on something on Monday. I only really turned it on to log this, and to email the final info to the study. So those of you that read this, that keep in touch with me by email/chat/whatever, I'm dealing in my own way with my own issues and I am just a crappy friend right now. And to be honest, I'm always more than willing to help people out, and go out of my way to be there for them when they need it. But the few times I actually reach out, people are not there. I'm just so tired with everything. I've realized the only person who can help me is me. I'm giving this all I have. The diet starts tomorrow. The exercise starts tomorrow. Less lazy and more crazy. But good kind of crazy. I have a giant list of things I want to accomplish, and things I've put off for a while.
Change is good. It's time to be more positive and get over this blah phase.

And in happier news, Kristopher made it the entire month of April with no warnings or bad behavior at school. He gets to participate in a special pizza party, and we rewarded him here too. His new goal is to make it thru the end of the year with the same, and I need to think up a really good reward if he makes it. He's trying so hard and it's amazing how much school has changed him. He's playing his final year of t-ball right now, listens and focuses when needed, and I've heard him telling other kids what is expected. Not in a bossy way, but to try to keep them from getting into trouble.
And with reading class, he's moved up to chapter books. Which is pretty awesome. I can't believe school is almost over and that it's almost summer.

So that's the update here. I plan to track this the same as I did the other one, and hopefully blog more. Gotta clear my mind somehow. I felt better last time I did this more regularly.