The Wait.

Even when there isn't much hope, the wait seems to kill me. I've been doing tons of little things to try to distract my thoughts. It works till I feel a twinge or crampiness (which is still lingering....) and then the thoughts start raging all over again.
And, have you ever saw something that you absolutely have to have for a baby, and then saw it for an unbelievably good price and been so tempted to get it? To the point of almost locking up your keys so you don't go buy it immediately? I'm having one of those weeks. I saw something I just have to have next time around, and I am so tempted but I really don't want to jinx myself or be stuck with it if this doesn't work out at all. I'm just trying to reason with my thoughts. It's not practical to buy something before I'm even sure this will work. Right???

And update with K. It's not strep, thankfully. Just one of those virus' that are going around and he should be fine in a few days. The fever finally broke over night and he's eating again, just not totally normal. He misses out on going to the party though because we're housebound till at least tomorrow, pending no more fevers. He's crushed. He was really looking forward to that.
And while on the subject of him being sick.....Yesterday he got his first experience at a strep test. Up till this year, we have to go for anything other than well child visits. It was all fun to him till he got shots at his 4 yr. And now after convincing him yesterday that it was fine, no shots, they gag him and he almost throws up, so he is officially not happy with the doctor. "Why did they try to barf me?" Poor kid. And, while in the waiting room, they had this tv that discusses health issues. Some of the topics were kinda strange for a pediatricians office. First was about asthma, and how 9 people die daily from issues with it. And it had to go on with how just a simple cold can turn deadly for some sufferers. Well, add a 4 yr old who's in there with cold issues and glued to the tv...."I don't want to be 9!!! I'm not going to die with my cold am I???" And then jump to the swine flu next. Symptoms listed and he's saying "I have a fever...I have a cold....My throat hurt.....Oh no!! Is it the swine flu that's wrong with me?!" We had a talk about how those things on the tv aren't common issues that he will have to worry about, that nothing bad is wrong with him, and then after the appt I distracted him at target with a slushy to help make him feel better. And we met D there, and he got to ride home with his daddy and talk non stop, so it was all forgotten for now.