This morning I went and took care of the early blood work for this month. Round 3. Tomorrow I start meds again and we're staying with the 1 pill dosage for now. They say that blood work definitely falls into the ovulation category, so it is happening, so no need to up my dose yet. She went over my journal and chart and says that it seems like I might be ovulating a little early. So, we have to time things a little better earlier. The plan should be days 10, 11, & 12, skip 13, then do 14, 15 & 16, skip 17, and then do 18, 19, 20, skip, 21, then just maybe every other day through confirming something happens just to be sure. Seems like a lot to me, but whatever.... I go back on day 24 because 21 falls on a Saturday.
I did ask about IUI and the study doesn't do that at this time. So basically, if after my 5 study cycles, I am not pregnant than my chart and everything will be forwarded on to the PCOS clinic. It's operated by the same RE that runs the study. She didn't tell me too much info about what happens when I'm a paying patient through the clinic, other than I can talk to the Dr about it if we get to that point. But hopefully we won't. I'm not supposed to give up hope yet. Easier said than done.
Last night I had my normal hormonal breakdown about how sucky and unfair all this IF crap is, how we finally found something I am able to respond to, and still aren't getting pregnant. We had our normal day 1 argument that started by me crying like an idiot for about 20 mins. After that we had a talk and I was a little better. At least my husband somewhat understands why I can't just be ok and find it no big deal when a freaking period comes and ruins my hope. He did point out that I had a lot of stress going on this past cycle between the whole surgery recovery, the kindergarten crap and other stuff. I agree that there was a lot going on and I wasn't exactly calm and happy. I'm going to try to not let as much get to me and relax more this time. And I also think that I was wrong by not pushing to have a real period before starting up meds. Fresh start always seems to help things. At least with my history and issues.
So anyway, here's round 3. I'm not going to sit here and act all hopeful that this will be it, but I'm at least hoping for a real good ovulation cycle like the first round. I want to see those higher numbers again, and better lining for this round. And if all that happens and I can remain calm, maybe it could work out.....We will see. At least I have 2 more if it doesn't.
I'm with you that it seems like you have a pretty busy 'schedule' there. But if that's what it takes, that's what it takes.
ReplyDeleteI honestly enjoy the IUIs cause they take away a lot of the stress of having to get it on practically every night and we normally even abstain for 48 hours prior to the IUI. It's nice, but I still find myself freaking out that I might O early and ruin everything.
It is a really lucky thing for you to be in this study though. Hopefully you will be a success, but I definitely know how frustrating it is to respond to the meds and still get a bfn. There is a big fat question mark floating around in my head, but I know I must keep moving forward or start the adoption process cause doing nothing probably won't fix it.