Here we go again. It feels like something is going on, but I'm still not that hopeful. I've been pretty achy on both side for the past 2 days. More intense than last week. Apparently I just have too much free time that I notice all this weirdness. Timing wise, we're doing good, so if it doesn't work this month either, I'm going to be extremely frustrated.
I'm having one of those weeks where it seems like everyone around me is getting pregnant or having babies. Every time I log onto myspace, I see pictures and stuff about my niece. I'm officially over the bitterness, but I swear to God they better take good care of her and grow up and give her the life she deserves.
And the dog groomer is apparently pregnant again too. We were told is was a major surprise and they "took it really hard". They have a kid around 18 months old right now, and she was about impossible to deal with when she was pregnant with that one. It was major drama to get an appt, and whining and complaining while I was there to drop off or pick up the dog. So rather than deal with it again, and risk saying something in my bitter hormonal-ness lately, I'm in search of a new groomer. Or maybe I'll just see if I can find step by step on how to do it all myself. Either way, I don't think I can mental handle going back there.
There is one couple we just found out about who's expecting their first baby in July, and I'm actually happy and ok about them because we've known them since middle school, they've been together as long as us, and they had a lot of issues getting to this point. So it's nice to see it happening for someone who truly wants it, is happy about it, and will take care of their child properly. Those types I can handle a lot better....
Anyway, still hormonal and crazy here. And I'll be obsessing all this till my appt on the 11th. There will not be any testing till at least day 32....That will be hard to do, but I think it's necessary for my mental health.
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