Because that is what is going on in my head right now. I was rudely woken up at a little before 7 with some really nasty cramping. At first I thought oh, it can't be anything yet, it's only supposed to be day 28, and last cycle that I ovulated, ended up being 31 days. And then thought maybe that horrible cramping was just a good sign of something really settling in. Ha. No more happy thoughts because moments later I started to get up and I felt that the cramping wasn't good...and made the mad rush to the bathroom. I'm not use to this! I'm not use to getting it without warning. Any other "normal" cycle for me comes with at least a few days of small spotting and then no cramping till it's truly here. Not the medicated ones. Out of nowhere I go from nothing, to instant freaking flow. WHY? So, apparently I can't even have normal cycles on this crap. Goes from 31 days, now 27 days, what is next? We had awesome timing, so I don't understand it at all. Either way, today is going to end up day 1, and I need to go from some bloodwork in the morning, and Tuesday will be med starting day. Yippie, I get to do it all over again. And I've officially given up hope that this will work. But I won't totally give up trying. It will be do the meds, try for the heck of it, get probed and stuck for blood work, start to get hopeful, then start bleeding and crush all hope.
I am having chocolate for breakfast today. I think I deserve it.
Oh, gigantic suck.
ReplyDeleteWell, I am sorry, it would have been nice. I was hoping some of that cramping you had was a good thing, but I had cramping about the same time my last cycle too and was worried that it might be a bad thing for you too.
Do remember, you didn't get the best start to this cycle. Can't say for sure if that really makes a difference, but maybe a normal start will improve your odds next cycle.
Are they willing to let you do IUIs to improve your odds?