Forgetting

This cycle is different. I'm not constantly thinking of it. I keep forgetting what day I'm on and have to check my journal. I'm not marking anything down journal wise other than the required info for the study journal. My own journal has been ignored. I honestly don't know if anything is going on this round. It's day 13 and I haven't had any of those stabbing obvious pains like past cycles. BUT, last round I did several times, and nothing came of that. So who knows. We're covering our bases and that's about it. No charting, no opks, nothing special. I'm staying busy and distracted with other things. It's working.
The want for another child is still there. I still think of that all the time. But the obsession is gone I think. So tonight I load my pics from the weekend and this one gets me desperate again. It just has to happen and I just have to get another chance to experience all the baby things again. Here's a picture of my niece that I took yesterday. My husband was holding her and she was cooing and smiling like crazy at me. So stinkin cute.
I think I'm in trouble with this one. Some little girl is going to get extremely spoiled. And little girl stuff is so so cute. I can't wait till she gets some hair because I have a link saved for itty bitty bows. I had several hours of baby yesterday and spent a good 45 mins on the couch resting with her while she napped. Apparently I was comfy to sleep on.

We had a really good weekend with lots of activity. K had a blast and is beyond exhausted. Thursday we went to a friends house and babysat another friends baby. Friday we were extremely busy around the house and went to see fireworks. Saturday we had a cookout and my cousin, who I think is not quite a year older than him was here and they played for 3-4 hrs non stop. He met his match with her because she is actually more hyper than she is. Then we kept keeping him awake to see the big fireworks last night. Today he got up early and went for breakfast with my parents. Busy works well for him because he's too distracted to act out too much. It's good because we have a busy week planned this week too. Story of our lives lately.
Tuesday I have the next appt with his therapy, which will be me and D alone to discuss the behavior plan and ways to distract the bad behavior.
I think it's time for bed now though because I'm beyond exhausted too. It's been a long week. I hope the next couple goes by fast.