Dragging

I feel like things are dragging so slowly. I still have 2 more days left of provera, and even taking it at night doesn't really help much. I get to wake up with the headache. And I have some extremely crazy dreams. I'm not sure if that's related to it or not but for now I'll blame it on that.
Yesterday morning I woke up feeling it was going to be a particularly bad day, so I retaliated against it, and ate an ice cream sandwich for breakfast. That made me feel a little better till my body so kindly reminded me why I can't eat junk food on an empty stomach. Thank you no more gall bladder. I think I learnt my lesson. The rest of the day seemed to drag on. D came home early to get extra sleep for his Friday night late shift, and that improved the day a little more. He went along for groceries with me which helped a ton since K's behavior usually gets insane during that trip. We did ok though.

I really think a lot of the issues with my mood has to do with the provera. I feel completely miserable when I'm on this. Or maybe it's the fact I know I have to take it because this cycle has failed and all hope is gone? I'm afraid that if this cycle fails and I have to go on bcp to keep things regulated till we're ready for going at it again, that it's going to really make things worse and I'll need medicated for mental health as well. So I'm going to start searching for natural options to keeping things regular. But part of me is holding on to this tiny ray of hope that this will work for us this time. I mean, I'll me maxed out med wise, and it's our last chance to try for a while, so it HAS to work. Right?

Well, I have to try to figure out my plans for the weekend. I hope to be back on Monday and not so crazy but I'm sure the period will start shortly after provera is over and make another long week. We will see I guess.