Tomorrow

I finally got a doctor appt to discuss whatever is going on with my ovaries this time. The past few weeks I've had a lot of pain in that area, and on both sides. My ER trip was on February 2nd, and I've had 2 periods since then and am spotting again. I'm sick of this. I have decided rather than just starting the herbs, I need to know what I'm dealing with in there first.

Tomorrow is just a consult, and I probably won't get an u/s done for at least another week. We will see. Either way, tomorrow is a start. They better give me some good advice on how to keep things under control so I can get back on track with diet and exercise and give me one more chance to try again for another baby.
We said years ago that when Kristopher was born, our deadline for a 2nd will be by the time we're 30. I'm 28. I refuse to put that kind of distance between my kids, so if it doesn't happen in the next 2 years, I'm finished and will move on past this. If we can't get the bleeding and pain issues under control and somehow make me as normal as we can (in that department anyway) then I'll just give up now. I have had about all I can handle out of this stupid fertility drama, and the irregular periods is just pissing me off at this point. I want a normal life, and to feel normal.
I don't want to deal with the ongoing wonder of if I'm going to go months upon months without a period. And I don't want this new extreme of every other week. I had this years ago and it almost got to the point of hysterectomy. Luckily at the time I had a really awesome RE who had pushed to try a few more things, and had gotten me under control. But it's slowly working back again.
I hope that the u/s just shows a few minor cysts. No extreme lining issues, and no giant cysts that will require any surgery.
I'm exhausted, I hurt, and I've got major hormonal imbalance and haven't felt like sugar coating anything so I'll just refrain from posting daily for a while.
Anyway, that's my rambling catch up for this week. Depending on my attitude tomorrow, I may follow up with a new post about the appt.