Final decision was made

We will not be getting the 2 girls that I have been writing about for almost 2 months.  We had a final meeting to go over anything we would need to know before they get placed.  We were suppose to appear for court in September, they would be leaving with us from there, and it sounded like it was a long term, able to adopt them type of case.  We bonded with them over the visits, Kristopher bonded really quickly, and all 3 kids got along really great. 
Then the bomb was dropped.  The biological parents have very scary criminal history.  The one will be getting out of prison in a little less than 2 yrs.  With that, comes a lot of threats on "making anyone involved pay" who was part of causing them to lose their parental rights.  Obviously in their minds, their actions meant nothing.  They should be able to pick up 10 years later like they were not gone the entire lives of these children.  And the even scarier part of these threats, is they have threatened and acted in the past on other subjects.  Well planned out, sick ideas.  So the reason this has been so confusing has been because there are serious risks involved when they are no longer locked up and anyone involved is at risk of being hunted down by the sound of it.  It was the deal breaker.  Way too serious of risks.  I can not put my family through that.  In my opinion, these people have already missed out on so much of the kids lives.  They have already screwed up their own lives to the point of not able to make anything of themselves ever again.  They sit there in prison and plot revenge.  Not learn from mistakes and better themselves.  They are sitting there with such hate and rage, just planning what they can do when they get out.  They have threatened their own daughter and grand daughter for allowing this to happen.  Just not going to get involved at this point.  It's way too much.

It was a hard decision to make because we invested so much time.  We got close, we've been mentally picturing ourselves as a family of 5...As having 2 daughters. Of having 3 kids.  Of what we could do as a family.  How Christmas would be.  How trips would be more fun, etc.  Not just with extra kids, but with THESE kids. 

And I'm furious.  This is information that should have been disclosed to us from the very first meeting.  Our agency is in just as much shock as we are, because they were not even told this. 

So we're back to the beginning.  It could be a few days of waiting, it could be a few more months.  All I know is right now, we have nothing to plan for and it can be any day.  I hate the limbo of all this.  I've officially ate my words.  This is harder than ttc and the waiting game.   This shows me real live children, and what our life could be like.  And it sucks. 
But....I'm in this to help and I know the right placement will come our way.  I believe it all happens for a reason. And right now I'm just going to believe that this happened this way to protect us from something bad.  I just hope that they figure out how to protect the kids and everyone who is involved in this before the parents can act on their revenge.  I don't see how they can make those threats, and be allowed out to take that chance.