He's having a lot of emotional issues lately, and I think a lot is still with the loss of Zoey. I'm the same way. However, he had a giant meltdown on Wednesday about going to school. There was a special breakfast thing with parents, and we both went with him. When it was about time to part ways, the tears started. That was a first. Last year, he pushed us out the door and couldn't get away from us quick enough. It took us about 20 mins to be able to leave him, and we walked away while he was standing in line for class, still in tears. He was fine in less than 15 mins, so I guess that's a plus. And the rest of the week has been ok.
His therapist thinks he is picking up on a lot of my stress and anxiety, causing his to spike all crazy right now. His only reason for not wanting to be at school lately, is because he misses me "so much". But yet at home, he's got attitude and anger issues with me. Such drama I swear! So, I have to learn to hide my stress a little bit better. And I will admit, since late August, things have been pretty stressful around here. Add loss of Zoey and my trying to cope without the whole world thinking I'm mental, is not easy.
Speaking of Zoey, tomorrow it will be a month already. It feels like she's been gone so much longer. I miss everything about her. I still can not believe this is how things ended up. I really thought we'd have at least another year or 2. I just wish I knew exactly what caused the problems, and what made it turn from just a normal bout of her issues, to this. What I wouldn't give this week to have her here, and to be able to just squeeze her and have her take all the problems away. She was the perfect person for bad days. Not many people understand that.
Roxie's doing pretty good. She's close to doubled in size. Getting a fat little belly. Doing pretty good with the house training finally. I love her like crazy, but she also can stress me out with her chewing, and accidents, and just not Zoey. I was never trying to replace her, and I love this puppy like crazy too, but, I got use to the old lazy dog phase, and I miss it. Roxie can go from all cute and cuddling to forgetting what we are doing and pouncing the face and biting a nose. It's cute but so frustrating. She is getting a lot better though, and knows what OUCH and NO BITE means. Instantly sorry if she hears either of those phrases.
The kids came back this week. I'm feeling more and more like babysitting is too hard of work. 2 were ok, after we found our balance. 6 weeks away has totally crushed everything we had going our way. We have a lot of attitude from the 3 yr old, and horrible bossiness. Almost 2 yr old is going through mommy seperation, and also forgot all rules and nice behavior. And the baby.....baby is colic. He has a crying/screaming fit that lasts at least 2-3 hours at least once per day. She took him to the dr on Wednesday because I thought his belly button looked a little funny, and turns out he has a slight hernia. Nothing major and they say it's not causing pain and will heal itself. And that the crying fits are just colic, and gave some tips to try to help that. We're dealing but I never imagined it to be this hard. He seriously makes me question if I can handle the baby stage 100% of the time, again. I would like to think if I had another, it would be different, and more like Kristopher was as a baby, but who knows. Any baby can have colic issues. And knowing my luck, my next will.
I'm also a little worried about what all this new kid related stress will do to this upcoming cycle. I'm suppose to start round 3 of clomid tomorrow. And then try like crazy to relax and keep my life a little less stressed. I hope it's possible.
And last thing I wanted to keep track of for my records is that Kristopher has his first cold of the school year, and within 2 days, it settled in his chest. When he coughs, he says it hurts, and was pointing near where he said last year with the bouts of pneumonia. I called the doctor right away, and they said to try the inhaler again since he has no other symptoms, no fever, no behavior changes, etc. So we picked up a new one last night, and the coughing has gotten better already. I don't think he coughed at all last night. I guess for now, when he gets the colds, we'll just have the inhaler for treatments as needed.
Now, to end with a cute picture of Roxie. I swear keeshonds must have the most smiley personality. Zoey did this really young too, and Roxie has started this week. It's super cute! She just lays there smiling away, even though she looks like she's about ready to bite and pounce. I also think she believes she's a cat. She does this hilarious crab walk, and will sneak up on stuff and pouncing it just like a cat on a prowl. Definitely a really strange, but hilarious pup.
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