Having an only child

I saw this on Kelly's blog and for once there is a subject that I feel comfortable linking up and sharing my story. 

Those who read this blog, know that it's a lot about my struggles with infertility.  Because of that, Kristopher is an only child, and there is a very good chance, he will remain that way.  It's out of our control, and I believe that things happen for a reason, so I am finally starting to accept that. 
For those that have came here from Kelly's blog link list, feel free to check the tabs at the top if you're interested in more info about our family.

Our plan was to have 3 kids.  I went off the pill a month before we got married, and everything became so irregular and eventually stopped.  We waited that full year like I was told it could take, then we went for extra help.  It took us almost 3 years to have Kristopher.
Kristopher turned 7 in September.  Every person we know, has at least 2 or more kids.  He is the only person he knows and talks to, that is an only child.  Sometimes he gets upset about that, and will express his wish for a sibling.  I do babysit, so we have 3 other kids around on a regular basis, and he would keep them here as family forever if he was able.  He loves to have other kids to play with and do stuff with that parents are not cool enough to do.  I know if we were to tell him he was going to have a brother or a sister, he would be beyond excited. 

What I do like about having only one child, is my attention is not pulled in a lot of different directions.  I can focus my attention on him when he needs it the most.  Right now he's struggling a little with school, and I am willing and able to fight to make his education the best he can get.  If I'd have other children to tend to, it would be a lot harder to make his appts and meetings happen. 

I am also lucky enough to be a stay at home mom.  It's not an easy job, but I feel that I've done the best for him by being here.  He's the type of kid who needs to know what to expect, and me being around anytime he needs, has reassured him that I'm always here for him.  I hope that continues as he gets older.   

Having an only child was not something we expected.  We both have siblings, so we weren't sure how to do this.  We must be doing pretty good because he knows our family is special in it's own way, and he does love to spend time with us.  He doesn't talk that much anymore about why he can't have a brother or sister, he just goes with it.  We do a lot and keep him active and busy, and I don't think we'd be able to go as much as we do, if we had more kids as we had planned. 

That being said, I'm still in the process of another round of clomid, and have one remaining after that.  From that point though, I no longer feel comfortable paying for higher treatment options with no promises.  Someday, we may adopt if the final rounds don't help.  Or we may not.  Who knows what our future will hold.  For now, we're a happy little family of 3, and we will continue to make our child have the best childhood we are able.