It was a sort of emotional weekend for me. I went from upset over the fact that this last round didn't work, to being pissed about it. Actually I'm still kind of pissed. Mostly because of some other family things going on that for now I'll leave out, but it really is starting to hit me hard. While I truly believe things do happen for a reason, I'm having trouble understanding why it's always harder and I have yet to see a break.
Speaking of breaks, this cycle is our break. Next Monday is my final study appt. It will just be a final round of blood work and questionnaires. Then, in October I will be having my first appt at the PCOS clinic. I have to get all my old records copied. I have all of that, but am thinking I'll run out of ink in the process because it's everything clear down to my first IF visit pre-Kristopher. Lots of papers. While I'd like to say I'm hopeful about what's to come with this visit we've also decided that we are not willing to put a lot of money into it this year. Possibly in the spring. Right now I just feel that I should not be putting all that towards it and have it not even work out in our favor. I'm not feeling too positive about anything working right now.
So during this little break, I'm focusing more on the weight loss again. I use to say if I got to this point, I'd be happy with it, but if I can't be pregnant right now, then I want to get closer to my old normal. My goal right now is 15lbs. 20 would be incredible but I'd honestly be happy with 15. And maintaining it. While on vacation and especially with the hormones this past weekend, I let things go. I didn't even weigh this morning because I don't want to see that and feel worse.
And another thing I'm considering for the next cycle is possibly buying the herbal blend and trying that. Even if it's only to maintain healthy cycles. I don't think I can mentally handle taking the pill everyday knowing it pretty much ruins all hope, but herbal there is still that chance. What confuses me though is with the herbal blend, do I still take my prenatals? I guess I need to research things a little more. Basically, this is what I've found and need to decide on.
This T&C formula was talked about a lot with my amish neighbor and apparently a lot of the ones who've had trouble conceiving have used and swear the success by and progesterone cream.
I emailed the woman who runs the store and was told:
Many women with PCOS have found positive results when using T&C Formula (1/4 tsp 3 times daily for 3-6 months) and Progesterone Cream (one pump a day, two weeks per month). Many women with PCOS find they are low in progesterone, and this is one of the reasons why they have problems ovulating. We suggest finding a starting point for the Progesterone Cream by counting the day your cycle starts as day 1, count out to day 12 and that is your start day. From that point on you just use it two weeks, stop two weeks, use it two weeks, stop two weeks etc.
Any thoughts? And cost wise, she is telling me that a bottle of the cream will last about 2 months, and the T&C formula will use 1 oz per week.
I'd give the T&C formula a try (can't hurt?), but I don't know about that progesterone cream... Progesterone at the wrong time in a cycle can inhibit ovulation (that's basically how BCP and depo-provera work). And since it's hard to know 100% when you ovulated, I'd say skip the cream.
ReplyDeleteJust guessing, but I'd think you'd want to keep taking your prenatal.