If you don't want to see a lot of gossip and bashing and major hormonal mess right now, close this for today. I'm extremely upset tonight and have to clear my mind.
I want to know what I've done that has made me keep getting every good mood ruined. Everytime I get happy and distracted someone has to come in and ruin it all and make me feel like total crap all over again.
I'll start by saying that I've started babysitting Thursday's and Friday's as of last week. I look forward to it and it's great to have a baby around. She's almost a year old and runs all over the place so she's not much of a baby but compared to K, she's a baby. So today I was happy because it was our day to have fun with her around. Then it was also the day that I got my camera. My husband text me several times teasing me about it, even included a picture of it and it was driving me crazy waiting for him to get home so I could play with it and figure it out.
And then it happens. The news that always can crush me down to a crying blubbering idiot.
"Is anyone else around? (No) Ok....______ is pregnant again. I'm sorry to have to tell you today. Please don't be upset." From my husband. ___ is my brothers umm baby mommy? I don't know what to call her anymore. My niece was born in April and since then they've gone way downhill. They were talking marriage when they got pregnant, and it never happened. She's always had an excuse. Well 2 weeks ago she decided she was done and wanted a "few weeks break." After a few weeks they would start all over again fresh. My brother calls my mom beyond upset because she's been his life for the past year and half to 2 years. He begged and pleaded and since she doesn't feel like being "stuck" with the baby all the time (he's taken care of her from about 6 weeks till last week when he finally got back to work, all on his own because she worked and he was home, so it was HIS job to take care of the baby) she left him stay. She then went to stay with her sister for a few days, back again and messed with his mind, went back to the sisters, etc.
In this timeframe, she has a male friend. I won't get into that long story but her "friend" touches her while she walks down steps like a "friend" wouldn't do. She dresses slutty for him. She finds excuses to get out and he's caught her sneaking around with him. So the big kicker of all this is she finally admitted that she's done stuff with this friend and now this kid might not even be his. He's crushed.
And she's been drinking heavily, and there's drugs involved too probably. I'll shut up now because it's just making me upset all over again.
So she has no clue who's kid it is, when she's due, when her last period was or anything important. Can someone tell me how any of this is fair? Seriously. Because I'm just lost at this point. I want to know what I've done so wrong that everything is constantly against me anymore. I want to know the reason or the lesson behind all of this.
It pisses me off. I was doing so good today....
You're not doing anything wrong. Your child knows who his parents are and isn't permanently screwed up the way their kids will be. That counts for a lot.
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