Is it just me or does it look incredibly weird to see flowers AND snow? I don't remember us ever getting snow before November. It didn't last long though. Maybe it means we will have a lot of snow this winter.
Most of the week it was raining. And high's of 36 so we stayed in. Kristopher had his weird shots reaction. I got a ton of stuff done that I've been putting off for a while.
We've decided we are moving in the spring. Originally we planned on this to be a permanent arrangement but with the recent things with my brother's drama, I no longer feel like it's ever going to be equal and work out. I feel like we are too old to be in limbo and I want to get this truly decided before we hit this point next year. Kristopher will be in school next year, and I refuse to get him started somewhere and then pull him out to a new school. And the drive is starting to really get to both of us. We live an hour from pretty much everything we do regularly, including my husband's work. He says he loves the country and this area, but the drive is really getting to him. So, the plan is to move by next May. And we also decided we will not be renting again. I don't see a point in spending more than a mortgage would be, to rent and have nothing to show for it a few years later when we move on. I just feel like at this point, this is what will be best for us.
So, ttc wise we're still going to be "trying" but I will not be going through any type of treatments for quite a while. We spent so much money in the past 5 years on things like that, and I just do not feel right about taking anymore at this point. I mean we rarely got a response. And when we did, things interfered. I'm taking it as my sign that it's not meant to be right now. The study is over and we've been maxed with our benefits for the past 3 yrs. Everything is full cash price. What I am going to do is start baby aspirin after reading several positive thoughts on that recently. And I'm going to eventually break down and buy the herbal treatments as a way to hopefully keep my cycles regular. Speaking of that, I'm on day 37 I think now and no sign of anything. I had no pains or twinges and am fairly sure I did not ovulate. And I tested to be safe yesterday and that was negative. I honestly feel nothing is going on.
My appt was scheduled for Oct 27th, but I'm not sure I'll keep that appt. I might just skip that expense and put it towards the herbs and reschedule for a month from now. I'm not sure yet. Right now I don't feel like dealing with it. I'm still burnt out. I'm not sure what the point in going since we won't be pursuing treatment right now....I'm pretty sure he's going to be negative about the herbal route. It's a pretty aggressive approach clinic when it comes to infertility. They are one of the best in the area. We will see I guess. I have till Thursday to decide if I'm rescheduling.
Oh man, moving sucks! But driving an hour to get to anything things does too.
ReplyDeleteI understand the hesitation to spend more on treatments and start the roller coaster up again. Me and DH have had a couple talks about a #2 already and I'm just really worried that if an RE gets involved that I will feel this need to succeed at all costs. Not a pleasant feeling, and I'm very stubborn so I know it will happen.
Really, give that herbal stuff a try and the BA. It's comparatively cheap and if it helps to regulate you at all (pregnancy or not) it will be worth it.