My right ovary is being out of control. I have the major intense pain going on that I had in Feb. Then, they claimed it was a cyst, but CT report said follicles. And then, I had a really bad period that came out of nowhere. So, my guess is possible ovulation. If this is what normal feels like, I do not want to be normal. And covering ourselves just in case was smart, but very uncomfortable.
So for my records, I'll post this.
Day 12, intense right ovary stabbing pains that have been going on for at least 3-4 hrs.
Other symptoms are boob pain and sensitivity, and over load of fertile like mucus. Now that I've completely grossed people out, I'm done.
Friday, August 5, 2011
A new update
I've sucked pretty bad at updating this summer. So much is going on. Between the move, the study, and just dealing with my own mental issues, I just haven't felt the time.
Things have been kinda rough mentally the past few weeks. At first I was so happy and loved the change. Now, I'm in a new house that I love, and people depress me. First, it's the irritating remarks I got after we moved in about the older interior. Then, I apparently made everyone mad by a particiular post on facebook about if people want to be rude, they do not have to visit. So now, we get no visitors. That's depressing. Apparently it means that everyone feels the need to voice the nasty comments, instead of bite their tongue and just enjoy some time with friends. But whatever. I have decided I don't need them.
So far in updates, I've gotten my dining room sanded, painted and I'm very happy with how it turned out.
Here's the before:
Things have been kinda rough mentally the past few weeks. At first I was so happy and loved the change. Now, I'm in a new house that I love, and people depress me. First, it's the irritating remarks I got after we moved in about the older interior. Then, I apparently made everyone mad by a particiular post on facebook about if people want to be rude, they do not have to visit. So now, we get no visitors. That's depressing. Apparently it means that everyone feels the need to voice the nasty comments, instead of bite their tongue and just enjoy some time with friends. But whatever. I have decided I don't need them.
So far in updates, I've gotten my dining room sanded, painted and I'm very happy with how it turned out.
Here's the before:
And the after:
I still need to figure out a nice wall arrangement because they seem so bare to me. But as you can see, the room is MUCH lighter. Another project I want to work on before winter is the table. I got it used last year because we needed something that seated more than 4 people. It is a nice sturdy old set, and the intent was to refinish it. It never happened, so now it has to because I have some paint boo boos to fix. Oops.
We have a little over 3 weeks until school starts. Kristopher is excited. I am too in a way, but sad to see summer over already. We bought his backpack and a new lunch box so far. He's probably going to need new shoes, but I'm not sure yet. He hasn't worn actual shoes since school ended. He's lived barefoot or in sandals all summer.
We tried to adopt a rescue dog, and were rejected because of our location. It was a place that transports to NH, but the dog was in a rescue an hour away from me. We were told we'd be the prefect family, but they choose to find someone closer to the main office so that paperwork was easier. And are paying for transport 10 hrs away. All for paperwork. It was depressing because it sounded like it was a go, and we were very excited. Turns out, we aren't even able to adopt a dog right now. It has ruined my feelings toward the rescue process, so I'm waiting on a puppy. Hopefully we hear something before it's too cold and nasty out. I was hoping for easy house training process with being outside a lot.
So that's about it for here. I should update again in the next week or 2...
We tried to adopt a rescue dog, and were rejected because of our location. It was a place that transports to NH, but the dog was in a rescue an hour away from me. We were told we'd be the prefect family, but they choose to find someone closer to the main office so that paperwork was easier. And are paying for transport 10 hrs away. All for paperwork. It was depressing because it sounded like it was a go, and we were very excited. Turns out, we aren't even able to adopt a dog right now. It has ruined my feelings toward the rescue process, so I'm waiting on a puppy. Hopefully we hear something before it's too cold and nasty out. I was hoping for easy house training process with being outside a lot.
So that's about it for here. I should update again in the next week or 2...
Monday, July 25, 2011
still around
I've taken a slight break and haven't realized it. Things have been pretty busy here. We've been here 5 weeks as of today. So much has been done and changed that it's starting to look like a totally different house. I painted our dining room this weekend (primer only so far) and the change is amazing. I'm waiting till Saturday to do a final coat to it, then maybe I'll share pictures next week.
I have a little over 4 weeks left of the weight loss part of the study. I'm still 8lbs away from my final goal. I'm starting to worry that it won't happen. I'm watching what I eat, and been very active, but I'm kind of stuck. If I go to lower calories yet, I don't know how I'd possible get enough to keep me healthy and fuctional. It's kind of stressful but I figure at this point if it doesn't happen and I can't progress to the next level, then it's not meant to be at this time. And I'm fine with whatever.
Being here has made me a lot happier and less stressed. I have this feeling of settled that I've never felt before. I have so many hopes and dreams for this house. I hope that some day we can buy it and do everything we want and stay here forever. I can see us here forever.
We have a little over a month of summer vacation left. We're both ready. Summer break is harder on me because he thrives on that other interaction. We've tried some playdates this summer to keep him exposed to other kids, and the ones his age or slightly older are just not working out. The kids come in and terrorize the house and have no respect or rules that I've finally said enough. I feel bad, but his only playmates at this time are little kids 3 and under. He doesn't seem to mind and the kids love him. But, I have noticed him being a lot more whiney and acting more babyish. That bothers me. He will be turning 7 in about 6 weeks. Scary!
I still have him in therapy, and we are still having our occasional battles with food. He's getting a lot better though. Therapy is now every other week instead of weekly.
That's about it for now. I'm going to try to keep up with this more.
I have a little over 4 weeks left of the weight loss part of the study. I'm still 8lbs away from my final goal. I'm starting to worry that it won't happen. I'm watching what I eat, and been very active, but I'm kind of stuck. If I go to lower calories yet, I don't know how I'd possible get enough to keep me healthy and fuctional. It's kind of stressful but I figure at this point if it doesn't happen and I can't progress to the next level, then it's not meant to be at this time. And I'm fine with whatever.
Being here has made me a lot happier and less stressed. I have this feeling of settled that I've never felt before. I have so many hopes and dreams for this house. I hope that some day we can buy it and do everything we want and stay here forever. I can see us here forever.
We have a little over a month of summer vacation left. We're both ready. Summer break is harder on me because he thrives on that other interaction. We've tried some playdates this summer to keep him exposed to other kids, and the ones his age or slightly older are just not working out. The kids come in and terrorize the house and have no respect or rules that I've finally said enough. I feel bad, but his only playmates at this time are little kids 3 and under. He doesn't seem to mind and the kids love him. But, I have noticed him being a lot more whiney and acting more babyish. That bothers me. He will be turning 7 in about 6 weeks. Scary!
I still have him in therapy, and we are still having our occasional battles with food. He's getting a lot better though. Therapy is now every other week instead of weekly.
That's about it for now. I'm going to try to keep up with this more.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
And it's home...
Since I've moved, I've had a major change in my attitude and outlook. For 10 years now, we've lived together. We've moved A LOT. Each place has been for real reasons, and on to better places or for a real reason. This last move was not even a year from the one prior. When we moved last August, we were sure that was for several years and we would probably stay through elementary school. Obviously, things changed. Rental office changed pet policies, and we wanted another dog. Rental office started letting trashy people rent as long as they got their money. Rent was going up, service and quality was going way down. It was a huge disappointment. So when this opportunity came up, we jumped. It's a cheaper place, but bigger. It's a full house, not a townhouse. It has one of the best yards in town. Seriously. It's like a triple size lot and VERY rare for in town. And not only is it big, it is nice. Perfect for kids, for pets, for gardens, for flowers, pool, whatever. It's just awesome.
And the layout is different. It was originally built as a business, with an apartment above. Then, it was made into a home, leaving the main living area on the top, but liveable downstairs as well. So, you come in and go up steps to the main area. Kinda like a ranch style home, but on the 2nd story. Kristopher called it the upside down house. Another thing that stands out, is we have burnt orange/reddish carpet from the 70's. It's fluffy and soft, but really stands out. A lot of people would freak out, but I actually love this carpet. The old townhouse had cheap stuff that was easy to replace each time, and it was horrible. So rough and uncomfortable. And UGLY. This is so soft, so comfy, and while it's wild and bright, it just goes with my style. Blends in great. Oh and we have paneling. At first I was like nooooo not paneling!! But that's even faded in my mind when I see how it's changed and blended to fit our family. I feel it looks nice now. I am happy. I like it. And for the first time in over 10 years, I feel like this is home. In all the places I've lived, I've never had this feeling. EVER.
So I'm in my happy satisfied weirdo land and someone has to come along and crush it. How? They decide to make fun of the carpet in a picture I posted. Then someone else visits and says something about the paneling and carpet. Double shot. Oh and lets point out a few spots of the fence that is falling apart due to the recent tornado/bad storm activity we had. And while we're at it, did you see all the weeds in the flower beds??? Why yes, I did notice that. I've been here 3 flipping weeks. Did you see all of what I did accomplish? Idiots. People really annoy me. When they are so miserble and hate their own lives to the point of having to find flaws in every freaking thing. I no longer have the patience to deal with that. So I fired back. And I hit a nerve and am no longer talked to by a certain person. Oh well. I'm back in my happy land and love my house. Orange crazy carpet, upside down, paneled old house. And I hope that somehow, someday, this will be mine forever. Because I love it that much that I finally feel like I could live the rest of my life here, have more kids, raise our family and grow old here. That's something I've never felt before and for once, I am satisfied about something. It's a nice feeling. I have a real home finally.
And the layout is different. It was originally built as a business, with an apartment above. Then, it was made into a home, leaving the main living area on the top, but liveable downstairs as well. So, you come in and go up steps to the main area. Kinda like a ranch style home, but on the 2nd story. Kristopher called it the upside down house. Another thing that stands out, is we have burnt orange/reddish carpet from the 70's. It's fluffy and soft, but really stands out. A lot of people would freak out, but I actually love this carpet. The old townhouse had cheap stuff that was easy to replace each time, and it was horrible. So rough and uncomfortable. And UGLY. This is so soft, so comfy, and while it's wild and bright, it just goes with my style. Blends in great. Oh and we have paneling. At first I was like nooooo not paneling!! But that's even faded in my mind when I see how it's changed and blended to fit our family. I feel it looks nice now. I am happy. I like it. And for the first time in over 10 years, I feel like this is home. In all the places I've lived, I've never had this feeling. EVER.
So I'm in my happy satisfied weirdo land and someone has to come along and crush it. How? They decide to make fun of the carpet in a picture I posted. Then someone else visits and says something about the paneling and carpet. Double shot. Oh and lets point out a few spots of the fence that is falling apart due to the recent tornado/bad storm activity we had. And while we're at it, did you see all the weeds in the flower beds??? Why yes, I did notice that. I've been here 3 flipping weeks. Did you see all of what I did accomplish? Idiots. People really annoy me. When they are so miserble and hate their own lives to the point of having to find flaws in every freaking thing. I no longer have the patience to deal with that. So I fired back. And I hit a nerve and am no longer talked to by a certain person. Oh well. I'm back in my happy land and love my house. Orange crazy carpet, upside down, paneled old house. And I hope that somehow, someday, this will be mine forever. Because I love it that much that I finally feel like I could live the rest of my life here, have more kids, raise our family and grow old here. That's something I've never felt before and for once, I am satisfied about something. It's a nice feeling. I have a real home finally.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Sick
I don't understand why, but somehow I got a really nasty something. Not sure what, and I refuse to pay the copays and deductibles to go and be told it's "just a cold". I've been pretty much down for the past 2 days. Fever that comes and goes. Coughing and snotting. Achiness. I'm half scared it's the flu, but when the fever is gone, I am able to get stuff done. The plus, I lost a little weight. The negative is that my house is seriously neglected. I went to get the kids cereal bowls this morning from the dishwasher, and the stench almost floored me. I had it all ready to run 2 nights ago, and forgot to turn it on. So, it had milky sippy cup smell. Really nasty. It's running on sanitize cycle now.
I have to go get stamps, and some food in this house. Right now I'm roasting so the fever has broke yet again. The kids have also been here all week because they've been snotting as well. So, whatever we have, we're all sharing and I just get the worst of it this time. Summer sickness sucks.
I have to go get stamps, and some food in this house. Right now I'm roasting so the fever has broke yet again. The kids have also been here all week because they've been snotting as well. So, whatever we have, we're all sharing and I just get the worst of it this time. Summer sickness sucks.
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