Phase 1

I'm getting more and more excited about this new step.  And nervous and stressed at the same time. 
I mailed phase 1 of paperwork on saturday morning.  Also sent off our first set of clearance request forms.  I thought this may be easier because it wouldn't be so up in the air with wonder and worry, but it seems to have its own set of things to think about.  Constantly. 

I am a planner.  I have to be able to prepare, but in this case, we have no idea what age we're going to get, sex, what needs it will have, if it's here to stay, etc.  I can't buy stuff in advance.  I can't stock pile diapers and baby supplies like I did while I was pregnant and waiting on Kristopher.  There's a lot of changes that need to happen in our home to prepare us for the big home study, but I can't really do much on that end either.  Not on my own.  So I sit here during the days, mentally planning and feeling overwhelmed because there is not enough time on the one day my husband is off, to accomplish much just yet.  And still allow him to have time to rest, and for us to have decent family time. 

I'm still excited though, and know that we're one step closer.  For my own documentation of all this, I'll probably blog more.  Phase one is sent.  Phase 2 is starting.  We're one step closer.  This is all for real now.  We're truly starting the adoption process.  I feel more positive about this, than any of the doctor appts or studies.  This holds real hope.