It's been a really difficult week. But out of the sad parts, is a new hope. We have decided we are not waiting for a puppy. We found a breeder who was really great, and have decided we will get our new furbaby next weekend. I needed a little time to prepare, and it's extra expense we had not planned on.
The breeder is really awesome. They stopped me and said that before I started with all my questions, they really wanted to know more about my "baby". They wanted to know Zoey's name, lots about her, how we got her, how we decided on the breed, etc. She was very nice to talk to, even though I cried. She said that she would really love it if we decided to adopt from her, because she knows we are an incredible home and that this baby will have a perfect life. She said she's more than willing to wait an extra week, and that it just means she gets a little more time with her. And that it's also hard for her to give them up. They do not believe in over breeding their dogs, and only have a new litter every 3 years, give or take. They work from home so these puppies are extremely loved and social.
I picked up a crate yesterday, and have talked to the local pet supply guy and found a really good food to feed her. She will not be having the grocery store crap like Zoey had started out on. I am not messing around with anything that's been on a recall list, or that is going to cause more problems. I trust this guy. He had a big breed dog, that lived to be over 17 yrs old without issues till the end. I totally feel that he knows what he's talking about, and that we will end up with more time. I feel we were cheated out of time with Zoey, and if I could go back in time, there is a lot of changes I would make. I feel horrible that I didn't do more research and make it the best for her back then. I was stupid.
I know that Zoey hated to see us sad. She would do anything she could to make us smile and be happy. So I know she would want this for us, because we're not happy here. I can not stand being home alone. I'm slacking majorly in everything with the normal day to day stuff. Kristopher is in a state of depression. Even my husband is different. We just don't know what to do in a pet free home. We need this puppy now, and while my mind says I should wait, my heart says it's time and I'm going with that. I don't know how we will function for several more months without something...
I know it's not replacing her, and I'll miss her like crazy forever. This week seems to have gone by quickly, but it feels like forever since she's been here. Since I've pet her, or held her, or snuggled and kissed her. It's just not fair.
I'm still so sorry about your baby. You can tell that she was a member of the family and care for you all. She seemed to have a really delightful personality.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you found a good breeder. There are a ton of Amish puppy mills around here and they are horrible. We voted on and passed a law last year to up the standards and prevent abuse and the legislators are completely ignoring it. It's very frustrating. And people that don't know anything about the law are talking out their asses and causing more problems making headway.
And just to be clear, I don't regret getting the kitties so soon after Muffy's death, but it did take longer to bond with them than I thought it would. I think you'll be glad you got your puppy. It will really help everyone's mood but it might be harder to put up with some of the puppy stuff while you are still struggling with your emotions.
Good nutrition is so important. I find myself a little judgemental about cat owners that are shocked that my cat lived so long. 15+ years should be the norm for cats, not the exception. Good care is the difference. I know it's a little different with dogs because certain breeds have issues associated with them, but good care and proper food can still make years of difference.