A new week

I've started to dread Monday's again.
Let me go back on this a little....
Lately I'm feeling used. I go out of my way to help those that I care about. I don't ask for anything in return. I feel that if you truly care about someone, then you are there when they need you. Weather it's to listen, or physically there to help. It's not about when you are bored and decide you need some excitement. I understand when things come up and you are truly busy, but when someone truly needs you, then you are suppose to be a true friend and try your best to help however you can. At least that is my belief.
I have come to realize that not many people think that way, and I definitely do not have very many people like that. Even in my own family. I honestly feel that I only have my husband, and one very close friend that I can count on. It's kinda sad with those who have vented to me and "need" me when they have issues.

Like the kids I watch. I have been close friends with their mom since we were in middle school. I've always been there. Through our friendship, there has been several times that she has not been when I've needed someone. But then comes around when it's convienient for her, and I've just accepted that. Since having Kristopher, our lives have been very different. Now that they have kids too, she kind of understands a little more, but we're still very different. I'm a stay at home mom, and I'm more than happy to watch the kids for her while she works. She wants to work full time, and is fine with the kids being away longer for breaks. My kid is in school full time, and that's a big enough break for me usually. Yes, I like when he gets to visit my parents and like that he gets the special time with them now, but I also get bored while he's gone and am always ready to have him back way before he is ready. But this is not about who is a better parent or who works and who doesn't. You can be a great parent even if you work. This is not the dispute.
I asked for a favor on Friday. Something that should be more than easy for them to do and I know it's been done a million times before to other friends and family. She acted very ok with it, and said she would either call me or text me "first thing in the morning" so I'm not waiting and could plan differently if needed. I waited, and waited, and around 10 decided to text on my own to see. No response. My phone can check status and it was read, but obviously being ignored. I wait till after 1. Try again. Same thing. By that point I'm out of time and very annoyed. It was too late to get it taken care of some other way, so we have no choice to wait till today. All weekend my question was ignored and this morning I waited for it to be brought up. It was not, even though we had an extra 45 mins to talk or whatever. So I'm annoyed. I am not asking again, and I'll figure it out on my own. It's clear I can not depend on them.
It should be different because 1, I do not charge them what anywhere else would. These kids are like family, and I have them a long time. No other at home provider would take them as long, and honestly, there isn't a daycare out there with hours as long as I would. So they are saving a TON of money here. I keep them later when she needs extra time before pick up, I'm fine with getting up earlier for her to come vent when she needs. I overlook the wild and crazy mornings while she is visiting before work, and the same with the evenings when she hangs out for up to an hour after pick up time. I feed the kids supper without expecting anything more. Because that's who I am. But the ONE TIME I need something......For being "like family" I sure do feel like I'm just some pathetic employee lately. Not truly a friend, or classified like family. So I'm annoyed. And I'm tired of being helpful. I let myself get too attached.
It's more than just this situation too, and more than just them.
I'm done being the one that everyone can depend on. Done trying to please people. I have very few "close" friends. It's time to just remember those who are trulyl there, and say screw those who are only there when it means something more to them. I don't care anymore.
So yes, it's Monday. I'm changing and this is a new outlook on things. I dread the rest of the week and few upcoming weeks while some people adjust to life with me not being a pushover anymore. Who knows how it will turn out. I hope they realize and change themselves. I hope that I don't lose these little people I've become very attached to in the process. But it's time to make people realize.
And I'm sorry in advance to those of you who do read regularly. This is my outlet, and it may take a more depressing theme for a while. Somehow though, I need to get it out. This is easier than going all crazy on someone in person...