A new journey

I'm considering changing my blog. I need an outlet and I'm not really feeling up to managing 2 blogs. So this might become mixed with a lot of our new journey with K. I haven't really brought up his issues that much on here because originally I started this blog to be about the study and IF stuff. Most of the people who read this are also infertile so I didn't find it appropriate to bring up child related issues on here. But like I said, I don't feel like managing 2 so maybe I'll just make it a total mix of life now. For today, this post is about Kristopher.
This morning I had an appt with a child psychologist because of behavior related problems I've been having with K. We talked on the phone last week for about 15 mins and she felt that it was best to get him seen and evaluated now, rather than waiting until 6 when the school district normally allows it and have him get a bad start to school. I went in hoping that I'd just be told I am over reacting, and that he is just a normal going on 5 yr old boy. I came out finding out that he most likely has a moderate to slightly severe case of Oppositional Defiant Disorder, as well as possibly a mild to moderate case of ADD. When we talked about it, he really hits a lot of the guidelines. And it just started around 4yrs old. Before that he's been the perfect baby/toddler, without any issues or concerns. And he's always been advanced with all he's done. So there was no signs of a problem before recently. I feel lately like I've done something wrong. I gave up a lot to be a stay at home mom, because at the time I thought that was the best bet for us. He was never sick at all till around 3 yrs old when he started being around a lot more kids and activities. He has always been fast to learn things and way advanced with what he does. But now I wonder if maybe I should have continued to work and had him around kids and other authority figures from the start. Maybe that would have helped. I don't want him to be pushed away by other kids, or to be made fun of. He absolutely loves school and to learn, and I don't want for school to be difficult and upsetting to him. I don't want him to resent it. So we're going to work on this issue now rather than waiting. And hopefully we can get the old K to come back.
Next week my husband and I are suppose to be going back without K along, and sit down and discuss what she thinks will help. What's being planned is a more strict behavior plan and advice on how to keep him structured. Also, she said we need to try a lot harder to get him around other kids and interacting as much as possible. I'll get a ton of advice in the next appt.
For now though, I feel like I'm going to have a tough road ahead of me. I know how the schools like to label and push the "trouble kids" aside, and I am going to fight to make sure he is treated like any normal child. He will have the same options and not be made feel like he is different. And if this behavior thing works well, there will not be a need to ever medicate and mess him up more.
I haven't had my meltdown yet, but I'm sure when I tell my husband all about my appt when he gets home tonight, it will hit me. For now, I'm ready to fight the world if they try to interfere with this boy.

Berries!

One of my favorite parts of summer. Fresh blueberries, strawberries and raspberries, right from our garden. The container was full earlier today, but well, they are a little hard to resist. K kept getting into them any chance he had. LOVE fresh berries!
Today was my last day of meds. Surprisingly, the headache wasn't quite as bad this round. Not a lot of side effects at all. I hope that's not a bad sign. It's day 7, so by the end of the week "homework" starts. I hope this works. I go back on July 13th. Other than that info, not much exciting on ttc here.
Tomorrow is the big appt for K. I'm kinda nervous what she has to say. Thoughts will be appreciated tomorrow morning. Hopefully she just says he's testing his bounderies, and don't showing signs of ADHD or something along those lines. I'll update more about that one tomorrow.

And on to a new week

We're having a semi quiet evening tonight. My mom took K and went to visit my grandma and have been gone for about 2 hrs now. Quiet house on a rainy Sunday evening really makes me sleepy. But I'll feel worse if I fall asleep now and get woke up in a few mins. So, I'll catch up.
Last night we went to the drive-in to see the new Transformers movie. I know it's PG13, but decided since K likes them, and the first movie went over ok with him, that we would take him along. Definitely NOT 4 yr old friendly. He still had fun and ate a ton of popcorn and fell asleep a little past half way through. We liked the movie though. Better than the first.
I'm ready for this new week. Tomorrow will be my last day of meds, and hopefully on the stretch to things happening by this point next week. I haven't really been posting as much because I feel burnt out still, and everything I have wanted to talk about, really doesn't apply to why I started this blog to begin with. And I've been spending A LOT of time outside.
I'm sure as the twinges and craziness starts, I'll be posting a lot more.

So, the plans for this week is to continue with the busy schedule. Lots that I have on my little list for the week.
Tuesday morning K has an appt with a child psychiatrist. We've started having a lot of behavior and anger issues. My mom works with a lot of early intervention type people, and she has me thinking that something may be wrong. It's probably just ADHD, but obviously I'd perfer for them to say he's just a strong willed 4 yr old who is just acting out due to age. And I've already said to them that if it turns out that he does have ADHD, then I will not be medicating. I just need to have some ideas on ways to help with keeping him focused and less anger. We decided based on his temper and hyperness, to hold off on Kindergarten this year. One step at a time. So this will be best for him to get it figured out now, get a behavior plan in effect, and then school should be a breeze. But I've gone off subject again...
Thursday I'm babysitting for a friend. Her little girl is 9 months old and I'm watching her because they have their "big u/s" for #2. I opted to keep the baby for the day so that will be fun at least. I always welcome some baby time :) She's at such a fun age too.
And one of these days I'm attempting to make tab top curtains. That will come with pictures if it works out well.

It starts

First of all, I can not believe it is almost July. Time is going so fast. Almost b-day party planning time for a certain wild child. I'm in denial that he is going to be 5 this year. I want to do a bigger party this year because last year was immediate family only and we left on vacation after. He spent his actual birthday in the car on the long drive back. So going to start planning earlier this year and make it be a big party.
I should probably start planning at the end of July. And we will have a beach trip in there somewhere too. And soccer starts. Ahhh..not enough time....

So today is day 3 already. I didn't feel that great when I woke up and had a difficult time choking down those 2 monsterous pills. If there is a next round, I think I'm switching it to taking in the evening. I woke up with a headache so I'm sure it will keep it here for the next few days.

I've been busy getting little projects done that I've been putting off. I've rediscovered my sewing machine and made a few baby related things for my friend who's due next month. It was addictive and I know when I am able to make for a baby of my own, we are going to have entirely too many diaper covers, slings, blankets, etc. Next project with the machine is going to be curtains. It might get out of hand & the whole house might get new. I want to do at least the kitchen, livingroom and K's room.

I've also been able to focus a little more on healthier eating with it being summer. We have lots of strawberries and raspberries here and that's been snacks lately. I'm down 3lbs from last week as of Monday, and hopefully more by next. Healthier eating, so much water lately, and been way more active than normal. I figure if I keep at this, maybe I'll have a better chance of all this working eventually. Or at least look better for our vacation. I guess I've just hit a turning point.

Still around

I know I suck at posting lately. I just have a lot of negative thoughts and not much good to talk about so I'm avoiding it. I just went for my blood work to confirm that I'm not pregnant this round. I went to a lab at a health center close to home. Much better than the 2 hr drive at 6am just for a 2 min blood draw. I even took K along and we stopped for a break at the playground after. The nurse there was really nice too and is keeping everything on file so I can come back and do this every round. Works out great.

So cycle wise, I'm guessing today is day 1. I've had spotting since Saturday, but nothing to count as real. Now today I have a lot of cramping to go along with it, and it's kinda regular and heavier, but still not the bright red that I've always been told to wait for. Study nurse says count today as the start so I guess that will be it. I know for sure based on this start that nothing at all happened last round. This is actually my normal and I do not miss it at all! Bring back the surprise start and quick period please. At least I'm done with the provera since things are here. That had it's wonderfulness like always. So, plan is to start meds on Thursday (3-7 again) and up to 2 pills each day this round. I don't care if it makes me respond double, I just want a real good month with no freaking issues to cause problems. Just one perfect cycle please!