My issue isn't getting any better now. I feel gross. And I'm pissed that this had to happen now of all times. Seriously, can't wait one more freaking week?! So now this cycle we've missed day 14, 17 & 18. I feel like I just screwed up. I'm still eating yogurt but not much help there. I called the study nurse today because I was reading about natural remedies and can't bring myself to try those, and am not sure about the kits just yet because of how our chances will be after this is over. I debated the AZO pills, but those are mixed opinions. So I just called her and asked for a recommendation of what I can do at this point. There has to be something they would recommend to get rid of this fast. She said they might be able to call in a script for me for a 1 dose pill. That would be really great if it can be a pill and I don't have to shove anything up there and deal with that mess! She said they are swamped with appts today but she will talk to the dr asap, and call me back with what is best. So I'll either be going out for the med, or buying a freaking kit later.
I do have to say, the most recommended thing I found last night while searching was garlic... And I don't know about others but I think the thoughts of a garlic smelling crotch is about enough to make me want to die right now. I can just see it ending bad somehow for me, going to the appt on Monday and when they get down there for the u/s smelling freaking garlic. Yeah...I'm not trying that. I think the u/s is humiliating enough at times. We don't need nasty issues to go with that or I might just die right there on the table.
Anyway, it's day 19. I'm probably past any O chances now, and hope with everything I can that we timed it good enough. I was tempted to keep trying but I know that's not the safest unless I want to do it all again next round....
If the last opk was real dark positive on day 16, and we covered that day, I hope that is still good enough.....
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Waiting.....and more waiting....
And more waiting. That is what it feels like lately. Time is dragging. It's rainy here again, and that doesn't help. Not much going on to favor either way but it's obviously too early.
I'm not sure that I really have a yeast infection. Maybe just irritation issues because of my laundry mistake. I'm forcing myself to eat yogurt and feeling better already. I bought stonyfield farm organic because of the probiotics in it, and its ok....I usually can only handle the yoplait light yogurt. With the blue containers. That I can tolerate really well. Obviously I know the organic is better but the texture is really different. So that's been my issue. If it works though, maybe I will switch completely and force myself to eat one everyday. Or maybe smoothies....That's a good idea! And I could get K into it too and sneak more healthy stuff in him since he's crazy picky lately. Hmmm..maybe onto something there.....lol
I skipped last night because I fell asleep on the couch and then didn't feel like doing anything. I figure it probably wouldn't hurt our chances any. We've only skipped day 14 and 17 since day 10....A break is a good thing. I just have to convince myself that. I think that the opks are just screwed up and just don't really work for me. But at the same time, I keep thinking well what if the positive on day 16 was for real, and I just screwed up skipping yesterday. Rainy days ruin my ability to distract myself with other things.....
I'm not sure that I really have a yeast infection. Maybe just irritation issues because of my laundry mistake. I'm forcing myself to eat yogurt and feeling better already. I bought stonyfield farm organic because of the probiotics in it, and its ok....I usually can only handle the yoplait light yogurt. With the blue containers. That I can tolerate really well. Obviously I know the organic is better but the texture is really different. So that's been my issue. If it works though, maybe I will switch completely and force myself to eat one everyday. Or maybe smoothies....That's a good idea! And I could get K into it too and sneak more healthy stuff in him since he's crazy picky lately. Hmmm..maybe onto something there.....lol
I skipped last night because I fell asleep on the couch and then didn't feel like doing anything. I figure it probably wouldn't hurt our chances any. We've only skipped day 14 and 17 since day 10....A break is a good thing. I just have to convince myself that. I think that the opks are just screwed up and just don't really work for me. But at the same time, I keep thinking well what if the positive on day 16 was for real, and I just screwed up skipping yesterday. Rainy days ruin my ability to distract myself with other things.....
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
UGH!!!!!
I have the worse luck. I think I'm getting a yeast infection. I've only ever had 1 real true yeast infection so I really don't know for sure. I just have a little pain that comes and goes, and kinda feel swollen. Just uncomfortable. No itching or gross discharge. I was going to buy a monistat kit while out today, but I really don't know if that's a good idea. Yesterday I had that postive opk, for real I think, and it's day 17 today. If I do the kit, it will make it not so great. I just spent a little while googling how a yeast infection will effect ttc and ovulation, and apparently it won't unless it's a full on infection. And really, I feel ok most of the time. It hurts more after peeing, then eases up. But I know for sure it's not a UTI. The pain is on the outside.
I don't know what is going on this month. The only thing I can think of is maybe between the mucinex and extra cm issues, and the fact I screwed up and bought scented detergent last week instead of our usual free and clear, this is what I get. I'm not sure. It's just makes me feel extremely gross right now and pissed that I might be out yet another round.
All I need is 2 more days and I think I'm past any chances of messing up. 2 more days!
Until then, would probiotics be a bad thing? If I can find some around here....I also saw something called AZO Yeast. It had directions for treating infection and also preventing. Those are pills....
I don't know what is going on this month. The only thing I can think of is maybe between the mucinex and extra cm issues, and the fact I screwed up and bought scented detergent last week instead of our usual free and clear, this is what I get. I'm not sure. It's just makes me feel extremely gross right now and pissed that I might be out yet another round.
All I need is 2 more days and I think I'm past any chances of messing up. 2 more days!
Until then, would probiotics be a bad thing? If I can find some around here....I also saw something called AZO Yeast. It had directions for treating infection and also preventing. Those are pills....
Weird....
First of all, for the heck of it, I did another opk yesterday. Darker than the control positive. Not sure what's up there. I never saw one that dark before. Covered our bases just in case. I'm done testing for now. It's too crazy. I'm also starting to get boob soreness, so maybe progesterone is on the rise. Not sure there either. Without the good monitoring beforehand with u/s and all that, it's just a mystery and I give up. Obviously whatever is going to happen will happen and it's nothing I can control at this point. I'm just hoping that it has happened and my period doesn't show up. I'm not testing till after day 31. For mental reasons.
I got my old records today. I've spent the past 2 hrs trying to make sense of it all. They had extremely crappy records. I can hardly read most of what I was looking for. I did find out, of the 4 clomid tries prior to K, the 3 that did not show response was a P4 of under 1.7 and the rest were 0.8. Then, the cycle he was conceived, my P4 was on day 23, and it was a level of 27.4. And he wrote "ovulation!!!!" beside it. I thought that was kinda cool. So then I was curious of what my levels were when pregnancy was confirmed. It was checked twice. Both times just say "positive for pregnancy" and progesterone is "in normals". So no info there. Idiots. Another thing I was really concerned and wanted a record was of my pregnancy. The chart for that sucked. It was when they still used that carbon paper, so it's so screwed up that it's not readable for most of it. The birth report was interesting. My labor was a total of 5 hrs and 48 mins. His heart rate had dropped several times to a "concerning level" and the ob was called for emergency c-section. I remember them calling for the ob, who was stuck in traffic on the highway 10 mins away, and there was a lot of making me turn and stuff and prepping "just in case". I didn't realize that it was going to happen if that doctor would have been there. Kinda scary.
After K, the records are mostly about all the bleeding issues. The rounds of clomid were about as boring and undocumented as before, low under 1 P4 results. What I did find out was during all the bleeding issues and D&C, they had done several u/s and the small follicle line is listed several times. "Several small follicles found on both ovaries". Why wasn't that mentioned before? Why didn't they suspect PCOS before? There was even a part on the chart that they had me try metformin, mostly just to experiment that option with clomid. But never once did they suspect PCOS. My chart ended on 11/21/06 and I was seen and did a clomid cycle in Jan 07. I have my own records on that. And I know I had a visit in Feb and March. The final switch was made in April to my first RE. I'm not sure why there isn't a record of those visits, but I give up. The place is a joke. The only part about the office that I ever liked was the ob/gyn I had that treated me with my first time ttc, and the midwife I had there while I was pregnant. Neither is still with the practice, so I'm definitely never using them again.
Later tonight I'm going to make a list of all this info for my own records. And put this thing in order. The chart skips from 03 to 06 and back again so many times that it's about crazy. Oh and there was a part about the post op report for my first D&C that talked about the "gross description" and "microscopic description". The Gross Description was definitely really gross. More than I really wanted to read for today.....
I got my old records today. I've spent the past 2 hrs trying to make sense of it all. They had extremely crappy records. I can hardly read most of what I was looking for. I did find out, of the 4 clomid tries prior to K, the 3 that did not show response was a P4 of under 1.7 and the rest were 0.8. Then, the cycle he was conceived, my P4 was on day 23, and it was a level of 27.4. And he wrote "ovulation!!!!" beside it. I thought that was kinda cool. So then I was curious of what my levels were when pregnancy was confirmed. It was checked twice. Both times just say "positive for pregnancy" and progesterone is "in normals". So no info there. Idiots. Another thing I was really concerned and wanted a record was of my pregnancy. The chart for that sucked. It was when they still used that carbon paper, so it's so screwed up that it's not readable for most of it. The birth report was interesting. My labor was a total of 5 hrs and 48 mins. His heart rate had dropped several times to a "concerning level" and the ob was called for emergency c-section. I remember them calling for the ob, who was stuck in traffic on the highway 10 mins away, and there was a lot of making me turn and stuff and prepping "just in case". I didn't realize that it was going to happen if that doctor would have been there. Kinda scary.
After K, the records are mostly about all the bleeding issues. The rounds of clomid were about as boring and undocumented as before, low under 1 P4 results. What I did find out was during all the bleeding issues and D&C, they had done several u/s and the small follicle line is listed several times. "Several small follicles found on both ovaries". Why wasn't that mentioned before? Why didn't they suspect PCOS before? There was even a part on the chart that they had me try metformin, mostly just to experiment that option with clomid. But never once did they suspect PCOS. My chart ended on 11/21/06 and I was seen and did a clomid cycle in Jan 07. I have my own records on that. And I know I had a visit in Feb and March. The final switch was made in April to my first RE. I'm not sure why there isn't a record of those visits, but I give up. The place is a joke. The only part about the office that I ever liked was the ob/gyn I had that treated me with my first time ttc, and the midwife I had there while I was pregnant. Neither is still with the practice, so I'm definitely never using them again.
Later tonight I'm going to make a list of all this info for my own records. And put this thing in order. The chart skips from 03 to 06 and back again so many times that it's about crazy. Oh and there was a part about the post op report for my first D&C that talked about the "gross description" and "microscopic description". The Gross Description was definitely really gross. More than I really wanted to read for today.....
Monday, June 1, 2009
Waiting now
I'm pretty sure it's over. I'm not even sure which day it happened. I know that day 12, 13, & 14, opks were positive. Day 12 and 14 being the most like the box picture. Day 13 was kind of questionable because of a thinner line. Either way, I had the other signs to go with it day 12 and 13, and a tiny bit on 14. Timing wise we have covered things well, and I actually skipped 14 because well, I was exhausted with everything else that happened Saturday. Covered day 15 so I still think that's good. I hope so at least! So today we're on day 16, and cm is all but gone. I feel like we've past it and it's just the wonderful wait. I think I'll wait till after day 30 to attempt testing. I'm feeling positive this time around, and I don't want to get all depressed and worse by the negatives. I'm just hoping for a P4 next week of over 15, and to hear them say that u/s definitely looks like a good ovulation. One more week.
Yesterday we went to use our freebie tickets at Dutch Wonderland. K is officially at the age where he asks "are we there yet??" and "how much longer?!" on long car rides. He wasn't distractable with the dvd player either for more than the first 45 mins. So the other 45-hour was every 2 mins one of the above questions.
We met up there with a friend and her family. Her boy is a few weeks younger than K and they've been friends since around 1 I think is the first time they met.....Anyway, they live 2.5 hrs away so we don't get to see them very much.
My boy is definitely a wild child. He's crazy tall for his age, which works in his favor for the rides. He was able to get on anything he wanted, some as long as a parent went on the bigger rides. We asked on the way what he wanted to go on. "Rollercoaster!! Bumper cars!!" Ummm ok....I thought for sure he would be scared of the coaster. We went on the little kiddie one and he loved it. Said he wanted the BIG coaster. We did it twice and that was my limit. He would have done it all day. It wasn't a wild one, but it was a full size, super fast, rip you apart feeling coaster. Even though we were strapped in and the bar put down, it still scared me to have him on there. And no matter what I said about holding on, he had to put his hands in the air like other people. Scares me! I'm glad he has fun though and enjoys it all. His favorite part was the water park and we did the water slide a few times. I'm glad I decided to rush the trip and do it now so I was able to do as much with him. Just in case I get pregnant. This might be the last trip for the summer if this cycle works. And I want to do it before any chance of implanting. I think it was safe yesterday.
Yesterday we went to use our freebie tickets at Dutch Wonderland. K is officially at the age where he asks "are we there yet??" and "how much longer?!" on long car rides. He wasn't distractable with the dvd player either for more than the first 45 mins. So the other 45-hour was every 2 mins one of the above questions.
We met up there with a friend and her family. Her boy is a few weeks younger than K and they've been friends since around 1 I think is the first time they met.....Anyway, they live 2.5 hrs away so we don't get to see them very much.
My boy is definitely a wild child. He's crazy tall for his age, which works in his favor for the rides. He was able to get on anything he wanted, some as long as a parent went on the bigger rides. We asked on the way what he wanted to go on. "Rollercoaster!! Bumper cars!!" Ummm ok....I thought for sure he would be scared of the coaster. We went on the little kiddie one and he loved it. Said he wanted the BIG coaster. We did it twice and that was my limit. He would have done it all day. It wasn't a wild one, but it was a full size, super fast, rip you apart feeling coaster. Even though we were strapped in and the bar put down, it still scared me to have him on there. And no matter what I said about holding on, he had to put his hands in the air like other people. Scares me! I'm glad he has fun though and enjoys it all. His favorite part was the water park and we did the water slide a few times. I'm glad I decided to rush the trip and do it now so I was able to do as much with him. Just in case I get pregnant. This might be the last trip for the summer if this cycle works. And I want to do it before any chance of implanting. I think it was safe yesterday.
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