Disgusted

I am disgusted with myself and the rest of this household today. 8 weeks from now, we are going to be at the beach. I have officially gained 10lbs since the study ended. 10lbs might not sound all that bad but it is. It's enough that my new jeans don't fit. It's enough that I'll look totally disgusting in my bathing suit, if it even fits. I need to get in the right mood to drop at least 10lbs, and fast. Ideally, I'd like to lose 15-20.
I just feel really digusted with myself for letting it go again. I was doing so well. I know how it happened, and it's my fault. And the other people in this house that keep bringing all the junk in the house. No one else cares. I feel like total crap lately though. I have reflux and heartburn issues with pretty much everything lately, have been drinking a lot more soda and tea (and slushies have become a major addiction lately as well) and not enough water. So starting today, I'm back to drinking just water. So far, I've had almost 75ozs. I have a 25oz refillable water bottle and it's about empty from the 3rd fill up. I'll give you a guess as to where I've been visiting every 10 mins today.

We have also hit 50 degree temps and it looks like the 10 day forcast will keep them around. And we turn the clocks soon so I'll have evening walking time back. I'm ready for spring and to be out of this winter time blah phase. If I can get a stroller sent along with the kids one of these days, maybe I can walk the parks during the day as well.
Either way, spring is almost here and these next 8 weeks are going to be a real change. This time I mean it.